Why is it that we care so much about what others think about us? Why is it that even if we don’t respect someone else that our feelings are still hurt when they don’t like us? Why is it that we can’t focus only on those in our lives that like us for who we are instead of wasting our emotions and energy on people that don’t really matter?
Photo: Gay Mayer
I so want everyone to love me!
Heck, I would love it if most people even simply liked me. Alas, that is not how the world works.
I have strong opinions and emotions that keep me from being able to simply blend in with those around me. I don’t mean to be different or not completely accepting of people as I try my best to accept people for who they are. The problem seems to be that I may be able to accept others for who they are but not agree with or understand their choices. And, as I, evidently, wear my feelings on my sleeve no matter how hard I try not to (and I have been trying ALL my life!), people think that I don’t like them instead of it being the fact that I don’t understand or simply disagree with their choices or views on life. If I simply don’t know the person yet, my insecurities seem to cause them to think negatively of me.
No matter what the reason for someone not liking me, it still hurts. It doesn’t matter how old I get, inside I am that insecure teenager who longs to fit in and be liked. I wish that I could figure out how to make a better impression upon people so that they would take the time to get to know the real me!
As I strive to be more accepting and open to others, I hope that my imperfections don’t overshadow what I have to share in a friendship. I thank God every day for the wonderful people that He has brought into my life who love me and accept me for who I am. It is for those people that I strive to be an even better friend for they are some of the biggest blessings in my life!